Monday 11 November 2019

Relationships, confusion and unpredictabilty

I talked to Devika on phone for almost 2.30 hours regarding my car, relationships and she told me to directly call & ask him than sticking to text which off course I couldn't do. I know she will definitely ask me about what happened next. 
I had asked him about when he would come to India so that at least I would be done with it but then now I don't think he will come on my dates of India so I think I should move on. 

I hate unpredictability in my life, I like to take reigns of my life in my hand not on somebody's hand. And I think all guys from my community are assholes seriously yes. Disappointing I know. But I think I give importance to a lot of people and not on what I actually want. That's what I want someone like my sister does solve my confusion. I am a most confused soul in relationships and of course in other things too. But I know I all make mistakes but would ultimately find the way out and not sit idly and just doing nothing because that's not me. Thank god I did masters and met all relationship gurus (my friends) which actually does matter in life because I know how cheap few guys are especially of my community. And so they helped to understand the ultimate truth which led me actually think deeper and come up with the list.

Qualities of who I think will be perfect in importance order:

(According to me)
- Who is open-minded and is not shallow    
- Who is weird and thinks different and believe in "Survival of fittest" law
- Name starts with R
- Likes red
- Born and brought up in Maharashtra or anywhere else than Karnataka or Goa but have roots in Karnataka/Goa  (purpose is to filter out all typical mindset ones)

I know it's very difficult  to find  anyone with my first very important quality " Who is open-minded and not shallow " so I think finding someone with all the above qualities is over-ambitious. 

(According to my parents)
- Traditional mindset
- Family should be rich, very well educated so that they could flaunt about
- Guy should be graduated from affluent college and be in good company

I disagree on fact 2 & 3. For 1st point I am ready to adjust but only if its combined with "not shallow thoughts in the name of traditions". 

So as u see the major difference in thought process of me and my parents and so I have decided to be the driver of my life than my parents.