Turning 28 today! Should I feel sad or happy :) Happy because its my birthday and sad because I am 28! Funny thing happened my sis and Gaurav both called me at midnight and I had hard time deciding whose call I should I pick? I could see my future now. Me being in any relationship will surely get in a way with my sisterly bond and I have to maintain both. And I picked Gaurav's call had a hard time later to manofy my sister. Fareen have warned me to not get emotionally attached but I couldn't stop thinking about it.
I don't know if this relationship would work or not but its worth a shot. My sister also thinks that he likes me but me and my trust issues I would always need an assurance. But I felt that connect while talking to Gaurav. With Vishal I was always in that friendly zone, but with Gaurav I feel that I am in relationship. What I admire about him is that he is clear about what he actually wants and he is direct on that front. Vishal was good looking and his family was also good but I couldn't form that connect with him. So only I had accepted request from Gaurav when Vishal didn't ping me for more than a month and I think I was right. I mean now when I am talking to Gaurav and knowing him better I don't want to talk to other guys. Fareen and my mom think that you should talk to other guys but I think that even if it doesn't work its fine. I understand there concern that if this relationship doesn't work out you will waste your time. But you have to take some risk in your life and have to take a decision. I am planning to meet Gaurav next month in March. Lets see how it goes.
Its not like that we both are similar I could say that we are totally opposite. In food front he is purely non veg guy and his fav is biryani, while mine is also related to rice but would stick to veg. He is into lot of adventurous sports and I am literally terrified of all adventurous activities. What not fear I have - fear of water, fear of heights and I am not afraid to share with him. But most of all I could imagine a family while talking to him. I always want someone to take control of life it doesn't mean being bossy around me but taking decisions. Being elder I always had the pressure to think and take decisions I always thought that while starting family I don't want to have upper hand. I know its weird because I have never been a follower I have always been followed by and not reverse. But in relationship I want to be follower.
The thing with me is I get quickly attached and quickly detached. And finally I think about my life with my family is best and why too make it complicated. Lets start working on it. I am deviating now from my task which I had thought I would accomplish when I am back now have to start working.
