I can't believe that it's the end of 2021 year and I am yet to find the love in my life. I mean I have met many people till the date, but there is no one which I could trust enough to accompany me on this journey.
So I am back to the search again. Meeting Fareen was good I feel I could finally make peace with the Shirang stuff she talking about the Husaifa and me with Shrirang ..my failed relationship made me realize that we shouldn't change our requirements just because last time it didn't work out. I like mature people who are not commitment-phobic trustworthy and respectful in nature who I can imagine my future.
Shrirang was commitment-phobic but had other qualities. Aditya acts sometimes immaturely but has other qualities. But I want all the qualities in the guy which is fair enough.
So my new list - mature, trustworthy, and respectful in nature. But while telling I need to tell just trustworthy, reliable, and respectful.
I still feel if things would have worked with RJ then I wouldn't have had to go through the dating process. I am actually bored with all dating and I need some break might do something else might be studying hard to switch jobs or work hard for promotion. Good that next year my home would be ready and would be busy it homely sharpening my interior decor art.
The worst is I repeatedly took bad decisions in my life. Initially, I should have convinced my parents for RJ then I should have atleast agreed to meet the guy who my parents were suggesting. Then I should have seriously considered dating Vishal instead of showing lots of attitude and ego.
Ohh my god something good actually happened in my life .. funny thing is after every breakup I see always the hope of RJ. RJ has created the profile on the matrimony website. Now I can stalk him :) But again I can't send him the request because his family has already denied with just stupid horoscope which I don't think that it didn't match because RJ has sun sign: Taurus and moon sign: Virgio which should have matched with my horoscope but definitely my father can't satisfy his fathers ego.
Actually, my father is the reason I am facing difficulty in getting married. Don't consider in the wrong sense! My father is very proud of his daughters and in this marriage market I don't understand why this guys parents need lots of respect why can't they treat as equal. Because my father can't be polite for sure he is the very direct speaker which makes sometimes other people offended.
My sister believes that I should forget RJ and move ahead, but what to do I always think RJ is the best even though I haven't met him. I want to get married to RJ but my sister and my father would definitely be against me. STupid guy I feel he is ok to date someone from Canada too but not someone who stays in United States itself. I should get over him.
I just checked my horoscope with RJs and it is matching with 21 points but stupid son and parents they don't understand my worth I feel. Maybe he is not meant to be in my life but I can't stop thinking about him. I should move ahead but I want to try finally the 55-5 manifestation technique and check if we are truely meant or not else I will move ahead.
My friends say that you should directly contact him but its not easy. I could have done that if we were not related. But in this case I haven't met him, his father just denied looking at the patrika and I am 100% sure that my patrika matches so seriously they don't want to consider me. I am not sure if it was RJ or his father. If it was RJ then I will seriously look like despo, if it was his father and if RJ didn't know then it was a different case altogether. But again if RJ tells his father then if my parents would know they would definitely yell at me.
Know I am confused if I should contact RJ or not. I mean instead of making efforts and sacrifices to date someone out of my caste and making all such adjustments I feel that I should date RJ instead because I had actually liked him. Sometimes I feel why to search at all stupid sites than simply contact R.J and then let him decide if he wants to date or not.
